I thought I wasn't going to be able to talk to you for a while, but it hasn't happened yet, Hopefully it won't, but I will be taking a break. This is emotional for me and this is the longest I have gone with continual contact. I just had to do all this for you.
That was my latest animated video. I don't know who to trust with the good things in my life. Those I do trust seem to turn on me or the good things just up and go away. I feel like this whole project is a waste of my time. I have spent countless hours on building an app to get you the most important aspects of this site in a jiffy and other things. I think I will be changing my initial plan, but I won't stop.
It's bad, because I've wanted to make the site better and create a community, but I don't have the resources to spread awareness of them to those that are open to sharing. So I am at a lost, but I will continue. I don't do this for money or to cheat anyone or to tell other peoples business. This site is mostly about me for people like me who have dealt with similar issues or for those that love them and want to try to understand what may be going on.
I am a serial entrepreneur, true. I never want to cheat anyone, nor have I. I just want people to trust that I will do my best to rectify any issue that may come up. I have so much I would like to do in order to help others and myself, but I can only do what I can right now. I have forces at work that wish me to stop, but I can not. I spent most of my life not being helped with on big issue that spanned a good amount of my life and led me into other not so good situations. All because I was worried about others. Now it's time to help myself. I can not understand why anyone would want to stop this, unless they feel threatened by it. If they feel threatened, that is not my fault, nor will I take any blame for their feelings.
I grew up being groomed to do as I'm told, forced to be with others in ways no one should be forced into. As a child. So, to be told by someone you trusted, and for some reason gave some details about these issues, but then he takes advantage of your lack of understanding and then takes you to church, you need boundaries, cuts. Like a two edged sword. The same as having one of those people you were forced into an ungodly relationship tell you they still worshiped that person after you've started dealing with the evil truth. Same as the father of one of those people that were being led to you as an object, telling you they prayed for that person on their death bed. Meaning, they must have known beforehand (that just became clear to me.) I didn't tell my father anything, he found out from my counselor who had threatened to tell him if I didn't. I knew he would be mad at me, but I also knew he was very unsure of that side of my family. He used to be on my side, even though I needed protection from his anger myself.
My life has never been pretty nor perfect. Not to disqualify anyone else's, but this is about me. Poor is how I grew up. I don't want to be poor. As long as there is debt, you can't be stable. I once told someone I trusted and cared about, for some reason, that once I'm out of debt and comfortable, I would want to still be in the workforce, like at McDonald's or something. My reasoning is, if you work just to pay bills and, because, you have to, there's stress and unhappiness. I said this even though I really liked my job and wanted to do more. I
was happy all the times I've worked in restaurants. I only had issues when gossip, bullying or inappropriate touching happened.
It's like I'm not allowed to be happy nor successful. I don't know what or why life is trying to do, be some things seem all too orchestrated. I'm tired of it. The vices I have do exists, some because of the evil of others and need to be hurried. Seeing one person as someone else, for whatever reason, is not my fault. This is what people get for not talking to the source, I guess. Or, maybe, acknowledging the real victims of the situation.
Here are some interesting things I've come across in my quest to understanding different unusual things that have occurred in my life. Such as seeing people I knew stand outside staring at me with red eyes. Seeing people transform before me. Maybe it's this, maybe it's hypnotism, but I'm not alone. I also know a lot of people have gone through the same stuff. So if you haven't, here are some things.
Astral Projection and Lucid Dreaming:
If you read the Holy Bible you will see various references to dream interpretation, transcending, etc.
Origin of Demons and other Spiritual Beings:
I would like to read the book of Enoch. I believe there's a lot more writings out there we have not found or are being hidden. Power is the worst drug. The love of money the root of all evil. Being tossed around in life can wake you up to a lot of things some may not be able to handle.
Well this is a good start to discovery or just learning something new. I'm not saying these are the answers to anything. Just some areas that have helped me get a better understanding of some things happening in my life. I hope the best for everyone. We've got one month down already. Let's continue to make them mad by being real and being happy for ourselves first.
I'm am not a licensed