I am trying to build something. I don't know what or why, I just keep grabbing onto free education. Learning is a distraction. Much like it was when I was a child. I've decided I'm not going to be some millionaire any time soon. I have to stop trying to make everything I see on YouTube. I was trying not to be bored or go cuckoo while recovering from surgery. Now that I've slowed down and come to realize what I have just been through, what I am going through, I'm feeling a little lost. I am lost in trying to organize, clean and get my happy space back. I am not lost in desperation, that's good. My abilities have changed, I feel that's no excuse for some things, but I don't know if I am able to correct some things. Boy, I don't want to be depressing, this is not my "plan."
I took time to think about what goals I have reached, however they came about and whatever they blossomed into. I try not to blame God, because I know He knows the desires of my heart. He also knows my needs versus my just wants. It's funny how things come about.
I'm sure all this was my impetus for finally revamping this site. I'm just glad that things are working a little better and are less frustrating. I figure there probably isn't even anybody reading this, playing games or listening to music under "Time Out." But, I just keep going. I feel like so much keeps working against me, but I guess that comes clear through the last 3 posts. The whole point of the revamping is for a more positive experience. It's going to happen, or maybe I just need to delete all this crazy memories. Then go to a better website creator, well, one that works with my vintage equipment :).
Christmas is Sunday!!! It's definitely for the kids, commerce, criminals, etc. I'm just saying, It's nothing like it used to be. I want everyone to be encouraged, especially if you can not be with your loved ones, friends or a place you feel safe. Maybe there is a way. Maybe be okay with it being just another day. Especially if you are a Christian. Why, because if you connect with God regularly, through Christ, you need no "special days." He loves you, you are wonderfully and fearfully made. It's not such a bad thing. <3
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