Why do I want to defend myself or feel I have to sometimes? I haven't had a job, yet, where I've had to be disciplined for being inappropriate, loud, violent, etc. I go in happy, smiling and encouraging. One person's words messed up my whole program. Negativity flows out where I desire positivity. I realize I am, once again, reliving some not so good moments in my life. I am so emotional right now all from one bad seed after another being spread. As I walk around the unreal becomes an irritant. Feeling I have to prove something, but not feeling like myself or a part of anything. I just don't get it. I believe God is working things out for my good. I know that being too involved in others lives leaves your own unattended. I would like to get back to good. I'm tired of crying and pretending everything is ok.
I'm am not a licensed